Ok so unless you missed the Facebook announcement!  I AM PREGNANT!  I know!  Totally psyched!  Took me a year and a half of trying damn it, but it finally happened.  Whoot whoot!  We are 13 weeks and 1 day today.  This baby gave me the crap scare of my life yesterday when I woke up to bright red blood (not spotting).  I was terrified.  I just kept saying, "No, no, no.  I can't do this again.  I can't go through this again."  I called my doctor's "if you need to talk to your doctor" line.  They told me not to worry.  Ummmm really?  I am bleeding red blood!  I thought that was supposed to be terrible.  Well apparently since I had just had my ultrasound the day before and everything looked great this blood was nothing to be alarmed about and at this point I have a 1% chance of miscarriage.  I obviously still worried all day while I was at work sitting in my office, doing absolutely nothing because I wasn't going to do anything to risk it.  Today I have realized that the doctor was right.  It is gone.

Another big thing!  We got preapproved for a house!   HELL YES!  FINALLY!  We are searching searching searching.  It has to be a USDA meaning it has to be a rural home.  We have looked at 2 in Ashland City that were both terrible.  We also looked at one in White House that is doable, and one in Portland that is fantastic just such a miserably long drive.  We continue to look.

I keep telling Jack that the location is not really a total deal breaker because I have no desire to stay with RA for ever because I am seriously beginning to HATE my job.  I feel like I have a bullseye on my head, and they are just looking for a way to fire me.  (You can bet your ass I made sure they all know I am pregnant because it makes it harder......hopefully this will get them the hell off of my back)  Every time I turn around I am getting griped at about something else.  I will be glad come March (Oh March 24 is the due date).  Well actually after March....after maternity leave is over and done with.  I will feel more comfortable starting to look for another job.  This one is not worth the stress level I put into it.  I am sick of trying to run a store on no payroll hours and then getting bitched at because something isn't done.  Perhaps it is because I don't have enough payroll for a cashier the whole day!?  Sucks.  I am getting off of my work soapbox now.

Florida in just a few days!  Which reminds me.... I may have to hit my cuz up for some dog watchin'.....maybe 2 dogs this time.....We are supposed to leave on the 29th.  I REALLY need some beach time!

Is it time to go to NY yet?  Y'all I had this bitch come in my store tonight.  She wanted to know if we carried something.  When I told her we stopped carrying it she proceeded to bitch at me about how she wasn't going to shop there anymore if we weren't going to carry that product.  To which I told her I'm sorry and that corporate makes all decisions on the planograms, and we have no control over what they put in the sets.  She just kept bitching.  All I could think was, "I'm glad she isn't going to shop here anymore.  At least I don't have to deal with her bitchy attitude ever again."  I would like to add that I had spoken with her on the phone before, and I told her that we had discontinued carrying the product.  I have no patience lately.

FINALLY

Finally a decision has been made, and I can stop stressing out!  We have officially decided to not buy this house.  We have decided that it just isn't worth the money to buy and try to fix up with no guaranteed return on our investment in the future.  Soooo now I am looking for a house in a similar price range to buy, and I think we have found one.  It is a townhouse, but it is only 64,900 and beautiful!  The person who owns it has been fixing it up, but they just want out now.  I guess they realize the property value is going down around the area, and they just want to get rid of it before they lose anymore money.  Me?  I just don't want to pay rent.  Our house payment will be 2-300 dollars less than a rent payment.  Yeah.  Anyways if you want to be nosey the MLS is 1385072.  The pictures do not do it justice.  The only thing that I didn't like about it was that it is a townhouse, but honestly in my wanna be freakishly cheap house range it is either a townhouse or a house that will not pass FHA inspection and the FHA inspection is a must because it is the easiest loan to get.  :)  But y'all seriously!  It is beautiful!  I couldn't believe it when I walked in, I couldn't believe it was the same house I walked into.  The outside isn't the most attractive.  I am hoping (this is if we choose to buy it) that the person who lives in the unit next door will decide to sell in a few years, and that we will be able to refinance and purchase the other half.  ;)

After working ALL DAY long by my freakin' self!  I am exhausted. 

We think we may have found a morgage company for our home loan, but there are still some issues that may or may not be able to be worked out.  We shall see.  They want to try an FHA loan, but unfortunately it isn't up to FHA standards.  Between that and the whole agreeing on a price issue.  Yeah.

Pretty sure I got a phone call earlier regarding the NY trip.  They want to leave Sunday instead of Monday.  My mother in law said that Jill wanted to go to NYC......This random last minute idea will add about 10 hours to the trip because if we go to NYC then my MIL also wants to go visit her friend in Dansville.....Let me break it down for you.

Chapmansboro to Old Forge= about 14 hours (that is how long it took last time)

According to Google
Chapmansboro to NYC is about 16 hours
NYC to Dansville is about 5 hours
Dansville to Old Forge is about 4 hours...
  Add to this a screaming almost 3 year old that wants out of his fucking carseat.  GET ME OUT NOW!  Yeah.....no.

 I think my husband convinced them otherwise.  He told them that I had to work all day Sunday and couldn't leave until Sunday night which would put us at about 7:30 just getting to my MIL's house.  We left at about 8 o clock last time and arrived in Old Forge at about 10 or 11 in the morning their time.  I just don't know what amount of time that they thought we would have in NYC.  If I go there, I want to spend several days to actually experience the city.  I don't want to just go there and have to turn around and go because we need to be at the next location.  That would suck.  It would be like going on a school trip to the mall for 25 minutes to eat after the educational part of the field trip.

1.  Work, work, work

2.  I am fucking nuts!  I am going to New York with my mother in law again except add sister in law and nephew with this.
    a.  I am going to have my own room.
         1.  Peace and quiet.  No nephew in my ear.
         2.  I won't have to share a bathroom! 
         3.  I have been getting up to pee 3 times a night.
    b.  I probably don't really have to see my MIL's family this time unless I absolutely want to!
    c.  There will be someone else to drive even if she does have road rage

3.  Attempting to buy this house again, and now I have a good credit score just not enough on my credit report!  Ugh!  I am terrified that we will have to move into an apartment.  We just keep on calling.  Surely someone will help us.  Hopefully our original place will finally give us a call back (we have been calling daily).

4.  My husband has not been released to work yet.  He started having really bad panic attacks.  He is driving my crazy being at home, but his psychiatrist says, "No."  He just isn't ready yet.  I am just ready to have a 2nd pay check.

5.  I am going to Florida in October!  YAY!  My parents got the condo that my whole family will be staying in.  Lord help me.

6.  I am only blogging because Misty's blog post about no one else blogging made me feel crummy. 

7.  I am working all day at the front of my store tomorrow by myself.  Yeah, you read that right.  I will be running the store and cashiering at the same time for 13 hours.  That is what happens when you have no cashier help for a couple of weeks.

8.  Ben and Jerry's Red Velvet Cake Ice Cream is amazing!

9.  I started watching Girls Who Like Boys Who Like Boys on Netflix because I actually know one of the people on Season 2, and it is HILARIOUS to watch him.

10.  It took everything I had to get to 10 damn it.  If you know of my other blog, you might wanna check it.

It is a sad sad day....I lost a follower!  :(

Ahhhh!  Forget that shit!  Misty totally got into the Radiology program!  Hell yeah!  It is an awesome day!

I totally worked 13 hours today.  I kicked ass putting the truck up.  YAY!  I am so tired of it taking several days to put up.  Let's face it!  I should probably just work open to close on Truck day, so that I know it will be almost put up by the time I leave.

Anyway I was talking to one of my shift supervisors about how I thought my LPM was being a complete ass to me, and I said that my other shift supervisor had said that she thought he was shady and didn't trust him THEN the shift supervisor told me that she didn't trust her, and that I shouldn't either.  She said that I should try to do as much by the book around her as I could because she was afraid that if I ever pissed her off that she would try to use something against me, and she didn't want that to happen to me.  Then told me that Joyce (my previous shift) had told her that this shift supervisor had stabbed her in the back at some point.  Of course, I ask how, and she didn't know because she didn't want to know more than that.  She tries really hard to stay out of that stuff.  Anyways she just wanted me to know.  In her words, "You really have some characters working for you."  Ain't that the damn truth!  My apologies for only pronouns.  If that makes no sense at all I will put some names in to make it make more sense.

Now it is time to watch some more Supernatural!  WHOOT WHOOT!

Work, work, work.  Stupid Loss Prevention Agent came in today.  Which in turns means the stupid LPM came in today too because I am having such a high theft issue in my store.  Which means I got to listen to what we should be doing.  Which makes me want to say, "If I could get 14 more hours, I would have someone just go over to the freakin' aisle and STAND THERE!  He is actually swapping my LPA with one from another store because he works more night time hours.  Just what I need.

Sooooooo if you don't remember, we are trying to buy this house (the one I currently reside in).  Everything has officially gone through probate court, and the house is now in my dad's name.  So now we need a morgage company to let us buy this house.  Jack called today.  The guy told him that he couldn't be on the loan, and that I didn't make enough?  I said, "Ummmm, how is that possible?  The last company said that if everything checked out I could get 150k by myself."  Apparently the morgage guy had my salary wrong, so that made everything a bit different when Jack gave him the correct number.  I still can't get the damn thing!  Why, you ask.  Because of 2 fucking months!  I apparently have a decent credit score now thanks to my handy dandy credit card, but I haven't had that credit card for 12 months yet!  WHAT THE FUCK?!  This is so irritating!  I am hoping that we can figure out what to do.  I am hoping that we will be able to wait the 2 months to buy the house, but my dad is concerned that it won't be enough time for him to take care of everything else after the purchase.  Hopefully this all works out because I really don't want to have to move into an apartment.  Ugh!  Just shoot me now!  It would be so much cheaper for us to just live here.  Someone find me a fucking home loan please and thank you!

Work, work, work...BORING!

I took Jack to Game Stop today because he wanted to try to go out.  We grabbed the game, and he immediately got nervous.  :(  We went straight home after that. 

I really need to go shopping for some khakis for work (stupid new uniform), but it is extremely difficult when my husband can't stay in a store for longer than a few minutes.  I would go by myself, but anytime I want to leave he wants to "try" to go out.  Sigh!  Hopefully this weekend.

Oh and quit bitching about Facebook Timeline! 

Blank page nothing to say.........

Got a lot done at work today.  Yep....that was my entire day. 

Oh, I totally want to take some photos.  I am hoping that Kayla will be my guinea pig.  I am still trying to get used to my camera, and I need to practice, practice, practice!  :)  Oh and no, I do not plan to call myself a professional just because I have a nice camera.  I had to explain that to someone just yesterday.  It is just a hobby.  I could not imagine asking someone to pay for something that I couldn't guarantee was going to be perfect.  I will take 200 pictures, and I will delete all but 5 of them because the other 195 weren't perfect.  I don't want to be like my cousin that puts every freakin' picture she has ever taken of her kid on Facebook.  That drives me crazy!  If you look through my photos (aside from Christmas...I refused to go through all of those...oh and the graduation ones I took from yesterday...I told my mom I would post all of them.), you will notice that I don't post the 300 pictures that I actually took.  Ok I am finished boring you with me wanting to take pictures.

I am freaking exhausted! 

My day consisted of:
Work until 12 errr 12:30
----FINALLY finding someone to cover me for the night after 2 yes 2! people flaked out on me.
Bank
Gas
Home
Let dogs out
Throw make-up on
Put dogs up
Grab Camera
Forget Bridal Shower invite
Become a speed demon to get to MTSU
Search for a freakin' parking spot.  I do not miss this at all from being in college
Walk from said parking spot to Murphy Center
Search for the parentals.
Watch my little brother walk across the stage!  YAY MATTHEW!
Immediately leave
Go to Target to get Bridal Shower gift.
Google map Thompson Rd in Murfreesboro sans the street address
Drive, drive, drive
Where the hell is this place?
Finally realize that someone is bound to have their cell phone number on Facebook
Patricia Carrasquillo!  Yay! 
Call
Get street number and re-google.
Drive, drive, drive
FINALLY find Natalie's house
Do the bridal shower thing. 
-including games *gag* ( I knew there was a reason I refused for that to be part of my bridal tea)
Spend time with a few girls from high school that I literally have not seen in YEARS! 
Realize I actually like them. 
Decide it is time to go to my parents' house
Talk to husband who tells me that he had a good day.  YAY no panic attack!
Drive to my parents' house
Realize I forgot the gift for my brother.
Ignore the fact that I forgot said gift for brother
Eat a hamburger (Yay!  Food!)
Talk to my mom
Head home
I am freakin' home!  Hallelujah!
Get on computer
Upload some photos
decide to watch Supernatural on Netflix
and finally remember that you would miss me if I didn't blog today!  :)

We spent most of our day at Jack's mom's house.  It was nice to get him out of the house for almost the whole day.  He was tired 95% of the day though, thank you upped meds.  What I hate is that about the time he is acting like normal Jack is when he has to take his next pill.  Ugh!  :( 

I have one more day left of my faux-cation.  :(  Here is to hoping that I get a Harris Teeter shopping trip and a movie in at some point.

"He is the motherfucking pterodactyl."  Yeah, you KNOW it has been stuck in your head, since you watched the video!  You're welcome.

The husband had his doctor's appointment today.  She upped his meds because apparently this is one of the "one in 500 cases" that she is willing to do that with. (yeah, I am winning a medal because my husband has terrible panic attacks.  What's it to you?) .  Hopefully that helps.  I am ready for my husband to be back to normal.  He also has ShowCon this weekend for his podcast, and I don't want him to miss it. 

This reminds me!  My Saturday is going to be ridiculous, so if anyone would like to pretend to be me that day it would be awesome.  I have to work until 12, be at Matthew's graduation at 2, sneak out of Matthew graduation after he walks, be at Patricia's bridal shower at 3, go to my parents' house for Matthew's graduation party at 5, THEN go meet my husband after that at ShowCon.  Long day!  Shoo!

I got a freakin' bonus!  I cannot believe it!  I had my appraisal this morning (that I almost missed because I couldn't remember my appointment time).  My appraisal went well, and then he told me that I got a bonus!  AHHH!  ::runs screaming::  I am seriously hoping that this means things are starting to look up.  If only I could make my husband not nervous and have a job, everything would be great.  BUT  I do recognize a good thing when I see it, and this is a FANTASTIC thing!  WHOOT WHOOT!

Now watch this video and be happy!  Oh and make sure there are no sensitive ears around!

To answer Misty's question on my previous post...Yes!  Cherry juice works wonders!  Anytime he has a gout flare up, I demand he drink it! :)

Jack like a dumb butt tried to leave the house today.  He was supposed to have a meeting with a couple of other podcaster guys, and he tried to go.  He made it about 5 minutes and had to leave.  His meeting was then over the phone. 

My work day was productive !  I am glad considering I am off the next 5 days. Yay! Too bad my vacation time will consist of me trying to keep my husband calm, and not something fun and exciting like going to an ocean.  Anyway, I made sure all of the basics were caught up before I left.  That will help keep me sane.  Hopefully they can keep up with it while I am gone.  Probably not.  It is like they forget how to do their jobs while I am gone.  Seriously!

Some bastard stole every single Sally Hansen Salon Effects in my cosmetic aisle between yesterday and today.  650.00 worth.  Thanks so much asshole!  My inventory is going to be terrible!

*My husband currently has me watching Star Trek Enterprise. 

Yo yo yo!  Twice in one week!  What's up!?

Well unfortunately on Tuesday one of the things that was worrying my husband and causing his panic attacks came true.  His work called him first thing in the morning and told him that he was no longer with the company.  Uh yeah, so he basically got fired because of his panic attacks, but of course that won't be the "official reason." AND now thanks to Governor Haslam signing that bill regarding unemployment, chances are that he will not be eligible for unemployment.  Here we go again!  On the bright side, his sister did say that she thinks that she may be able to get him on where she works.  That would be fantastic because I really don't want to go too long with only one paycheck!  PLUS (I guess now it is only me, since he no longer has a job) we are trying to buy this house...so yeah.  Not so perfect timing.

He did get to go to the doctor, so he has his medications.  She also told him to not go anywhere for the next week, so that the medication can kick in.  And of course, because my husband just can't catch a break right now, his gout is flaring up.

My Loss Prevention Manager came to my store yesterday of all days.  I wasn't there, AND it was truck day.  Of course, everything stopped when he came in, so the truck was not even barely put up when I got there today.  Anyway, he basically ripped apart my store.  Whenever he does that, it makes me worry.  Is he trying to get rid of me?  Does he think someone in my store is doing something wrong?  We aren't, but LP has been known to basically force people into admitting that they did something wrong even when they didn't.  I also know that he is about to terminate someone in another store, so I am sure he is just itching to find another person to investigate.  He also told my shift supervisor that he would be at our inventory because he was very interested as to how it would turn out.  Seriously?!  What a fucking ass!  SO now I have decided to create a list of absolutely everything that should be done everyday, so that we know we have everything perfectly right.  I am probably just worrying because my husband has already lost his job, and the very last thing I need is to lose mine for some stupid reason.  Honestly, I feel ridiculous for even worrying, but the fact that my husband is so panicky is making me panicky.  I didn't realize how much it rubs off until now.  Thanks for letting me get all of that off of my chest.  I am sure you will be hearing more about that in the future.

Hey there is a blogger app!

I have this new fangled phone, and now I can blog from it! 

Currently I am in love with Christian Grey.  That would be 50 Shades of Grey for those of you not in the know.  I am about half way through the third book, and I am already dreading the end. 

I am loving Predators hockey.  I never thought I would enjoy a sport this much.  The players aren't to bad to look at either. 

I got the new Tampax Radiance tampons stupid cheap, and I like the applicators better than Pearls.  

I am trying cram the rest of my vacation time into the month of May.  Taking 3 or 4 days off a week every week this month has been fantastic so far.

My husband has had a panic attack a day for the past 4 days.  I know it is hard on him, but I am totally exhausted from it too.

Apparently our former CA roommate is moving back to TN.  We heard that through the grape vine.  We cut all ties with him when we moved back. 

We are still waiting on being able to purchase this house.  I am so ready!  I am ready to make the yard look nice, and start painting and redoing rooms! 

I am in G.  We got here last night!  Today we went shopping, did the Rocky Mountain Wine Trail (Got a FREE wine glass for each of us!), ate at the Alamo (BOGO lunch special!), went back to the cabin, walked around G, ate at The Best Italian Restaurant (ehhhh...it was ok.), and came back to the cabin.  I apologize for making this as basic as possible, but when we got back to the cabin alcohol, pool, and the hot tub ensued.  I am sure you can understand.  :)

Well, two of my dogs are officially on their mini vacation.  Kasey couldn't have cared less that I was leaving her at her g-ma's.  She totally ignored me once we got there.  Maverick on the other hand is a different story.  He tried to leave with me whenever we were walking out the door.  Roscoe was just confused the whole time.  He had that look on his face of "what is happening?"  Poor thing.  He was happy to see the house whenever we got back.  He is also happily asleep on the bed right now snoring his little butt off.


Sooooo here is a picture of the best Christmas present that I have ever given myself....

This baby was a small fortune, but it is AMAZING!  I promise I won't deem myself a professional photographer to those of you who may be concerned.  :)  I do totally enjoy using it, and I am learning every possible freakin' thing I can about photography.  I thought it would be a good hobby!

 My laptop is about to die more later.  :)

12:08.....ehhhh but I am still awake!

Ok, so technically it is the 4th and I missed my January 3rd post, but ya'll don't care!  As long as there is a post here!  I started playing on Pinterest, so sue me!  I got caught up looking for things to pin!  I am freakin' addicted!  I cannot help it!  Anytime I want to look at something specific all I have to do is search it and BAM all of those ideas in my face ready to be repinned!

I gave my dogs their baths tonight!  I am totally having anxiety about sending them to stay with people while I am out of town.  Kasey is going to Jack's mom's house, Maverick is going to my parent's house, and Roscoe is going to my cousin's house.  Nervous!  I remember being like this the last time we went out of town too.  I am so afraid something is going to happen to one of them while I am out of town.  Ugh!  Panicky.

Oh!  I am going out of town this weekend to Gatlinburg!  Squee!  It has been way too long, since Jack and I actually got to go somewhere.  We are going with my brother, sister-in-law, and my niece!  I am so ready to be there and not be at work!  Tomorrow is the day I take two of my dogs to their mini vacation locations and then Roscoe goes on Thursday.  I am sure he will be totally confused.

Ok it is bedtime.  I have to get some kind of sleep, so I can be speedy Gonzales tomorrow at my store!

Where will I be living?!

Ok!  I am totally  not completely sure where I will be living, BUT when I called my mom about watching Maverick while we go to G she asked me if we had thought about buying the house that we are currently in.  My reply was that we had talked about it, but we were sure if it was a possibility.  Well apparently it is!  ::Happy Dance::  Our plan is now to try to get a loan or better yet find out when I will be able to get a loan, so that we can buy this place and then start fixing it.  I would much rather pay on a morgage than ever pay rent again if I can help it.  My mother in law has already said that she will help us get a loan if she has too.  I am hoping that we will not need her help, but if we do....well I am not going to pass up that offer.

The hall door opening all by itself 2 times on New Year's Day....a sign about the house perhaps?  My granny saying, "Keep it in the family."  <----The house.  Get your mind out of the disgusting gutter.  :)

Now I cannot freakin' stop thinking about all of the changes that I can make.....first order of business would be to pull this atrocious wood paneling off of the wall.  BLEECH!

I would like to say that yet again it is almost midnight, but I remembered damn it! 

Happy New Year! 

My New Year's resolution is to BLOG EVERY DAY!  I have totally almost screwed this up already!  It is about 11:30, and I almost forgot! 

Things you will hear about in the near future:

1.  Where will I be living?
2.  G'burg here I come!
3.  Oh my camera....oh yeah!
4.  Pictures, pictures and more pictures!
5.  Work stuff....I am sure I can think of something
6.  Super awesome Christmas presents
7.  Coupons
8.  I'm addicted to Pinterest.
9.  I cannot think of anymore because of the wine in my system!
10.  I will chat more later!  For now, I leave with a picture of my super cute min pin!

11.  Ooooo Ooooo!  I thought of one more thing to talk about!  Constant negative Facebook statuses!