Dear...

I really wish I could go back and talk to myself about 15 years ago and ask myself what I think I would be doing in 15 years. I know I wouldn't ever in a million years think that I would be in California. I know that I would think that I would be teaching, but that is about it. I imagine I would think that I would be living in TN because I never really had any desire to move away.

I remember telling my mom once that I wanted to change my name to Stacey. I have no idea why other than the thought that it sounded like a good valley girl name which in itself is weird now being I live in California, and that is definitely how the girls out here talk. Like Oh My God. :) I totally used to talk like that as a youngin'. I loved Clueless. I loved Saved By the Bell (BTW I am working at the Bayside Pharmacy.)

When I was younger, I kept a diary. It is addressed Dear Daughter because I wanted my daughter to know that I did understand what it was like to be a teenager. I have gone back through it and read a lot of the stuff in it. Some things I read, and I just don't get why I was upset about it, but then I remember that was the whole point of keeping the diary. All of the boy stuff takes me back to that magical place in my childhood. I can remember meeting Jason, Brent, Joey (Yes, Ramsey...we dated for 2 and a half years/ It seems like a million years ago), and I remember my first kiss, Travis (He went to Riverdale). Oh and that guy Mike. All of those memories are in that precious diary. Every now and then through high school, I would write a little something (probably about Kristoffer-he was the other long term relationship), and it would make its way into the book (it is actually a three ring binder). I have lost a couple of journals though. :( My diary is currently at my mother in law's house sitting with some other important papers of mine.