Day 35.5

I have been HORRIBLE today! I mean horrible! I started my day off with a 100% Whole Grain Wheat bagel! It slid from there! I ate a piece of pizza from last night (it was like a 3x3 square-thin crust). We went to Jack's friends' house. They were having a party. Dave cooked chili, and he was going to make cornbread but was missing an egg. I suggested cornbread casserole instead. Jack and I went to the grocery store to pick up a can of whole corn. He picks up a chicken salad croissant because he is hungry. I ate a pulled off piece of that (croissant and all). They grill out hot dogs. This is the worst part. I start eating a hot dog on a plain white bread bun. I don't think twice about it. I was half way through the thing when I FINALLY realized, "Hey, I shouldn't be eating this!" Then I move on the chili which would be perfectly fine, but there were Fritos nearby! I don't EVER eat Fritos with my chili. Why did I start today???? Can we please declare this weekend a holiday because of the Super Bowl? OMG! Ok so then (yeah I know right, you thought I was finished) we left Dave's to go to Jack's boss's house. We tried to contact someone to get the address, but no one answered. We headed home. Jack says, "You wanna eat mac and cheese with those steaks we bought earlier?" My reply, "Yeah, why not! I have already eaten absolutely horrible today!" What do we do when we go in to buy the mac and cheese? We grab barbeque baked beans! I don't even want to think about how much sugar was in that let alone the piece of cake I inhaled! I am so glad that tomorrow is another day. At least, I exercised.

Day 35!

I am at a weight standstill, but I remember the last time hitting a standstill around this weight too. I am hoping that, since I have incorporated exercise that I get through this lull quickly! I am determined to not give up! Last time, I got stuck here and I couldn't get over the hump. I am going to add in some spicy foods too! I hope that works! I am so ready to get closer to being under the 200 lbs mark again! I really think that will be the breakdown in tears moment. I just have to keep telling myself that I CAN do this! If I can lose 30 lbs once, I CAN do it again and once more!

I can definitely tell a difference in my body this week, since I have started exercising everyday well except for that one day. I am seriously considering going twice one day this weekend just to make up for that one day. It is really wonderful to be able to tell a difference this quickly. All of those informercials (who doesn't get drawn into watching those!) always talk about results in 6 weeks, but I am seeing results this week! I like the immediate gratification! It helps me keep going!

I actually ate a 100% whole grain this morning! If you haven't ever hit phase 2 before, you should know that it is REALLY hard to convince yourself to eat grain on purpose when you switch over. You have seen this weight loss during phase 1 that is amazing, and you really want it to keep going! Going back to losing 1 or 2 lbs a week almost makes you feel like you are failing. For instance for me this week, I haven't lost anything and all I can think about is, "What if I wouldn't have eaten those whole grains?" I haven't been brave enough to go back on fruit, but I think this week I may buy a couple of apples. I also think that after 2 weeks of phase 2 I may resort back to phase 1 for a couple of weeks. I am hoping that gets my metabolism going.

Day 34!

My husband came home tonight!!! I declared it a cheat night when he came home. I had food for me, but not for him. We ordered Dominos. It is soo good. I am eating it way too late too. I did exercise today! Yay! I believe that there has only been one day this week that I haven't exercised. Having a gym within walking distance definitely helps with the motivation.

I would also like to add that when my husband got home he mentioned how thin I looked. :) How sweet! He said he can really see it in my face! YAY! Well I am off to spend time with him!

Day 33!

It is Thursday! That means tomorrow is FRIDAY! YAY! I almost didn't go to work yesterday, but then I thought, "I don't wanna get stuck working on a Saturday!" I worked in Tustin today, and I was informed that I have to be there on Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday. I am just screaming, "WHAT ABOUT MY OTHER STORES!?" I am also going to be thoroughly pissed if they want me to work overnight on Tuesday. I really wanted to take whatever days off that Jack has off, so we could spend time together. I haven't seen him in a week! I still don't know if he is coming back tomorrow or not. :*( I am ready to see my husband!!

I had a pretty good food day. I yet again skipped my snacks. :( I really need to stop doing that. I did cheat today. I had a ice blended coffee. I haven't been sleeping well lately, since Jack has been out of town. I really need the caffeine! On an up note, I did 35 minutes on the elliptical today! I did not have a grain today or a fruit. I really need to incorporate those items in. That requires a trip to the grocery store though, and I can't convince myself to do that.

I am still not sure about my scale situation. I am still considering buying another one. I really think that this one gets stuck, so I think I weigh less than I do. Which is totally depressing, when I think about it. My scale gets my hopes up and then shoots them back down! Rrrr!

Day 32!

That is it! I am buying a new freakin' scale! My scale says something totally freakin' different than the scale in the gym.... I am seriously hoping that the scale in the gym is not calibrated correctly! It weighs me like 10 lbs heavier than my scale! That totally aggravates me! On the plus side, I can see a difference in my body, but still! Rrrrr!

I overslept today. I wound up getting to the store I was supposed to be at at around 1 this afternoon. I had breakfast cheesecake, a cobb salad, chili..I skipped snacks today. Waking up late totally threw that off. I did go get on the elliptical for 30 minutes tonight! I am sure that sleep is not in my near future, but at least I burned some calories!

Jack is still out of town. :( I am so ready for him to be home! He may have to stay out there until Sunday. I can't stand it! I didn't have him for 2 months over the summer because he was already out here, and I was still in Tennessee. I don't like being without him. I was ok during those 2 months, but I also had my parents and friends right down the street.

Day 31!

I changed my ticker! You can actually read it now. I changed my total goal weight. I added 10 more pounds. Sooooooo as you can see from my ticker my scale tells me that I am down 30 lbs. I am planning on stepping on the scale in the gym today, so I will find out how correct my scale really is. I am hoping that it is right!

I am soooo tired! I haven't been to sleep yet! I couldn't sleep last night, so I just stayed up and got ready for work and went. I am thinking it is almost nap time though. I don't know how much longer I will be able to stay awake.

My food for the day has been pretty good today (aside from my sugar caffeine fix) I had Breakfast Cheesecake, cheese, 1/4 of a Rye bagel, and now it is around lunch time sooo I am going to eat some chili.

Day 30!

Hello day 30! After no sleep last night, I went to work. I had Breakfast cheesecake when I got up and then I ate half of a rye bagel for "lunch." Lunch was at 9 this morning. I cheated today, but I had only had like 30 minutes of sleep. I really needed the caffeine. I don't do regular coffee, so I had a Caramel Frio from Peek's Coffee. Sugar and caffeine rush. I got home around 1, and I weighed myself. I don't know why I weighed myself, but I did. I am down 28 lbs! YAY GO ME! 30 days in and 28 lbs down! Ahh! WHOOT WHOOT!

I went and got on an elliptical after I woke up and ate dinner tonight (Turkey and Black bean chili). I was watching TV, and it was like the elliptical was calling my name! Jennifer stop watching TV...you know you want to come exercise. Sooooo I did!

My computer currently has a virus on it, so I am screaming for my husband to come home and get it off! JEEZ! I tried to fix it, but it won't even let the programs run that I need to run to get it off of my computer! BEWARE OF INTERNET SECURITY 2010 it is FAKE! I didn't actual download it. I actually managed to get it from some site I went to, but I just thought I would forewarn you anyway.